"You Have To Ask Your Heart - Do You Want It?"
Hi, I’m Mandy. I’m a finance professional turned certified coach. Kind of a 180 right?
Here’s the story:
I had a cookie-cutter successful life: 2 master’s degrees, the 6-figure corporate job in finance, nice apartment in New York City, and a loving husband.
There was just one problem, I was miserable.
I had lived my entire life following the “right” path:
✓Getting good grades
✓Going to good schools
✓Getting good jobs
I followed every single step to the T. Every step. Then, 30 years later into this thing we call life I was hit with a painful truth: I was doing things that I didn’t think mattered to the world. I wasn’t happy. I wasn’t fulfilled. And to be honest I sank into a pretty dark depression for awhile.
The world had lost its color, and everything felt so pointless, mundane, and BLAH. I felt stuck and alone, and I knew if things didn’t change that life wasn’t worth living. I was ready to throw everything away, including my own life.
Years later (because hindsight is 20/20) I realized what went wrong. I had never considered what I wanted to do or what makes me happy.
I had been conditioned by our culture to forget about my dreams.
Whenever someone told me “just do what you love and follow your passion,” I wanted to smack them in the face. Passion? What’s that? It seemed so simple, yet so unattainable. I knew everyone had a “thing”: a talent, calling, purpose, etc., but I’d never been able to grasp mine even though I’d been searching for it my entire life.
Everyone in my life thought I had career ADD. I quit graduate school because it wasn’t a good fit for me. I fell into consulting and finance, and then changed 3 jobs in 4 years. I had a killer resume, but I never (not once) was excited to get up in the morning to go to work.
Yet, I continued to stay in a job that made me feel empty inside. For years. And I was more miserable than ever. And this misery bled all over every area of my life. I didn’t just hate my job, I hated my husband, I hated New York City, and I hated living my life.
I was turning into the most bitter and angry person I knew, I couldn’t stand being around me. Ironically, my career was skyrocketing with credentials, promotions, and achievements.
On the outside, I had made it and I was living the dream. On the inside, I was dying an accelerated death.
Something had to change. Or maybe everything had to change. I had no idea. I was desperate and I was willing to try anything in an attempt to find happiness.
So I asked the universe to show me a sign. I pleaded: “Please help me. I don’t know who I am.”
And the universe answered. I met the person who became my coach under the most unlikely circumstance. The person who asked a question that changed my life, and that to this day is THE QUESTION that I live by every single day.
She said: “You have to ask your heart – do you want it?”
It felt like I was hearing that voice in my heart for the first time. I hadn’t let it speak for so long that I felt like I had given up on it completely. But in that moment, I knew exactly what she meant.
I was scared. I was unsure. I had no idea what I was getting myself into. But I knew deep down I was meant to do this.
So I took the biggest leap of faith in my life.